Izit you????

Just now watch show to make myself cry....
Felt much better.... But donno why still feel like crying.... O.o???
Izit bcos of that jerk??? Hope no!
I duonno way i just feel like crying but i only can cry awhile......
I duonno how to cry weird huh????
I just duonno why i wanna cry.....
My heart and mind is only "?"......
OMG! What is happening?!??!
Why cant i just cry out once and for all?????
Zzzzzz.......
Not gonna slp tonite......
No mood...... Duonno why...... O.o.....
>_<!!!!

Why?Why?Why?

Why does time have to pass????
Why do perfect moments never last???
Why do people have to change?????
Why are things so strange????
Why are hearts so easy to break???
Why are love so hard to make??????
Why are there lies in the world???????
Why are things so confuse????
Why is your heart so hard to trust????????
Who dies and who lives?????
Why is there so much pain??????
Why cant peace ever really be there????????
Why in the end do they have to leave you??????

I duonno why......

I still cant get over you......
Cant remember how many months it has been since we broke up.....
But i cry everytime when i think about you......
The sound of the rain droplets always leaves my heart shaken up.......
I regrett giving you my love..... I regrett getting attached to you........
I regrett holding you back........Why do i have to face th pain alone????
I tried to be your only girl,and did you ever understand my heart?????
Now it became the compass of broken love......
Tears are flowing down,and soaks the dry lips......
What should i do, i still cant get you out of my mind........
I cried alot bcos of you, I feel hurt bcos of you,I belive in the love bcos of you......
And now I lost everything bcos of you.......
I am speechless,sufocatting,and hurt .
A world without you.......
Chewd out my heart,stomped on my dignity,Torn apart my heart.....And why did you leave me behind???
It also rain on that day,you stared at me wordlessly,you stared at me and nothing else......
Those trembling gazes, and the awkardly force smile,speaks of our seperation......
I really regrett giving you my everything........
And i face everything myself......
You told me to leave and the moment i leave, you treat me as insane it is just to hard......
Then i cry silently and wordlessly , cos i feel that i am really a fool.....
To belive in you......
This kind of jerk!!! I hate you!!!!
But i dun noe why sometimes i still miss you......
But whenever it rains i feel like go to the rain and cry.....
Bcos it reminds me what you told me in the rain......
And when i cry in the rain i will feel better......
All bcos of you i become like this.......

Bcos of you......

I belive in love from the first time i saw you.....
I said i need you , I miss you , I cant live without you......
I said i wanna stay next to you,my love is true, wanna go back to when i was with you......
I cried alot bcos of you..... I cry every nite........
I belive in love bcos of you......
I lost everything bcos of you.......
I was such a fool back time......
I hate you forever.......

Fly me to the moon, and let me play among the stars......
Let me see wat spring is like on,Jupiter and Mars.....
In other words,hold my hand........
In other words,baby kiss me.........
Fill my heart with song and let me song forever more....
You are i long for, all i worship and adore.....
In other words,pls be true.........
In other words "I Love You"...............
I remember this is wat he sing to me but.......
Does he really mean it????
I am just a fool!!!!!

Although you say you can see me but you can't see me well......

Can you really see me??
I cry at a place where you can't see me..... You said you noe.....
I feel hurt at a place where you can't see me..... You said you noe.......
Everytime i need a shoulder to lean on ...... You said you noe......
Everytime i need a hug.......You said you noe........
What if i say i dun have any feelings for you do you really noe????
Can you really noe how i feel or anything????
No you can't cos you are not me......
Everytime when i ask you you said you noe i trust you.....
After that i noe wat is happening i feel that i am a fool!!!!
I AM A BIG FOOL!!!!!!!
I am very stupid !!!!            :'(

I am a fool....

It must be bcos i am a fool.
It must be okay even if it hurts me.
Even if you tease me that is a foolish love,bcos i am such a helpless fool..
My wanting to be good to him,is enough to make me happy.\
Even if he smiles at me once, I am happy with that smile.
Untill the person he loves come along, I am going to stay by his side like this...
It is a love that makes me happy just to give .
So i wont wish for anything more....
In a place that he can always reach me if he holds out her hand......
In a place where i can always hear him if he calls out to me.....
I will stay there without any change, Bcos i love him......
Bcos ...... I ....... Am...... A........Fool........
Although everything has change i still think that a am a idoit fool!!

Why seperate andnot BREAK UP???

Seperate for awhile, it might better. I dun really mind wat you have said, bcos i have never noe......
When you say this and that,what izit that you really mean.....
Even thoght i dun understand, I have to pretend i do....
You said we are together too much,it is not good..... Whenever we meet there is always problems......
WHAT IS REALLY THE PROBLEM????
 The thing i do that is always right,but now and day it is always wrong.....
It is my fault,but how izit my fault???? I still haven got a clue.....
Will you be angry when i said, should i belive what you said???
When you ask for us not to see each other...... Who did you borrow the sentence from!?!?!??!
Lets us seperate for awhile,bcos you love that one more likely......
You dun love me anymore,you just tell me...... Why did you keep staring at me for?
Lets seperate ........ How long will our seperation be????
The rest of m life,or antill i die???? Why do we have to seperate?
Then why dun we just break up???
Dun make me blame myself for it, we are not strangers if you dun love me you will have to tell me.....
You are not me you will never noe how much it hurts to hear this.....
Seperate for awhile,bcos you love that one alot more likely......
If you dun love me , you just tell me...... Why did you keep staring at me like this??!?!?
HOW LONG WILL OUR SEPERATION BE????  For the rest or my life, or untill i die?!??!
Why do we have to seperate??? Why not just break up????

I hate you!

You make me cry...
You make me feel pain....
You make me wanna kill myself....
You  make me feel sad....
You make me dun trust love....
You destroy my whole life!
You broke my heart!
You make my heart bleeds....
I hate you forever!
You made a scar on my heart...
I will never forget....
What you did to me and how you broke my heart....
I HATE YOU FOREVER!!!

I miss you...

No one noes how much i miss you.... No one noes how much i miss your touch, your smile, your laugh......
I miss the way you would hold me so tight when you told me that you loved me.....
I love the way you told me you love me forever and you would never let me go......
I miss the way when i lay in your arms,my heart would be beating so fast....
I miss the way you told me the same thing.... I hate the way i made my mistakes...
I hate the way i could take you being there for granted.....
I miss the way you care for me.....
I miss the way i knew it was you who texted me,before leaping to my phone....
I miss the way you call me late at night and talk to me just becos you miss me....
I miss the way you told me you never let me go..... I miss the way you love me.....
I love the way you told me i was the only girl you love....
I miss the way you made me so happy, I miss the way you made me miss you......
I love the way you stared into my eyes and told me i was the only one you love......
I miss the way i stared into your eyes, and could almost cry becos the most amazing person infront of me was staring back....
I miss the way you took me to the garden, I miss the way you told me about stars while lying on my lap......
I miss the way you gave me your jacket bcos i was cold, and you would not let me refuse....
I miss the way we stood in the rain opposite sides of the field and you shouted i love you......
I hate my tears as i tired to understand what you were saying....
I hate the way you say the five words that i drop my phone .....
I hate the way you looked at me and then look away..... I hate the way that our memories mean nothing....
I hate the way i thought it will never happen...... I hate the way i cant leave you alone....
I hate the way you gave me my bracelet you broke it and walk to her.....
I hate the way you say can i go now>!?
I hate the way that i can act like eveything is normal but in my heart i amvery hurt and my heart is bleeding..... I hate the way it hurts so much to love you the way i do, then realize how much you dun care.....
I hate the way i stilll have hope.....
I hate the way "i love you".....

Can I really forget you??

During sleepless nites...... I pretend that the past is not real.... It brings back how i used to feel....
So much sadness in my hopeless life..... Never knew things would change so fast....
You are not here and i am alone.... Trying to run away from this pain that has grown......
I feel so empty now that you are gone..... There is so much crying,I feel like dying....
This one is for you and these words are not brand new.... Though it is coming from the heart.....
Thank you for the life you haven given me...........Thank you for the hope i am finally free.....
You will always be in my mind..... Cross my heart, hope to die,I never will forget you.....
I cant go on without you.... I hope this wish will come true.....
During sleepless nites and endless dreams, these words inside my heart,stay in there till we are apart.....
Feel these tears coming in my eyes..... I try not to cry, i try.....
This shooting pain in my eyes, i cant hold i anymore..... You are gone you walked away......
Now i am colder than the ocean breeze..... Now you are too far gone...... Pls stay with me....
I promise myself i would not cry.... Then a silent tear falls from my eye....
You are the only place i can put myself......... No hopes or dreams.....Can fill my tumbling days....
After you are gone.... Day after day, and i slowly go insane..... I hear your voice...
If i see you next to never, how canwe say forever? Wherever you go, I will be right here waiting for you..... Whatever it takes,and how my heart breaks, I will be right here waiting for you.....
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears,I wonder how we can survive......
This romance, but in the end if i am with you, I will take the chance..... I wonder for a moment.....
If this is all a dream..... To watch you leaving, is to know that i have lost my place on this earth....
Long ago was free,where did all the time go??? And i will finally have to let go.....
This memory will be in my heart forever.... I will say goodbye to you.... But not forever... Only for now....